“Watch and pray, that ye enter not into temptation: the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.” (Jesus, Matthew 26:41)
“Let every soul be subject unto the higher powers. For there is no power but of God.” (Romans 13: 1)
“Greater is he that is in you, than he that is in the world.” (1 John 4: 4)
Yesterday, before I left home, I fancied having some breakfast cereal but immediately felt queasy. I did about 5 minutes meditation to centre myself then I was OK but passed on breakfast. I went all day without water and food, as I do these days, and arrived home at about 7.30 pm. I had an egg sandwich and some water.
Soon I started feeling peculiar again, partly nausea and part stomach ache. I knew this feeling wasn’t related to the food, since what I eat is always all good. Besides, food has no influence on who I am, right? And yet the stomach ache grew worse. I made the mistake of believing it to be of the number 2 variety and went to relieve myself. It worked for a while then it was back and so I had to go again, you get the picture. By this time I was writhing on the sofa where I was lying down. My poor mother, who I’m living with, is coming from a “take pills” reality. Though she understands I have to go within to be healed it’s difficult for her to see me in pain and not want to help me the only way she knows how.
I decided to go to bed and try and get into Inner Silence which I was finding difficult. The pain kept reminding me that it was something I had eaten, that I had food poisoning. I’d had it with its lies. There was only one thing to do, chant.
You see when I chant the name of God over and over, I’m acknowledging that nothing else exists but God. There is no other power but God. And where there is God there can only be freedom from what binds. As I chanted “I Am That I Am, I Am” in a melody I’d created, I felt this immense power growing within me. The irony was the power springs from within my stomach, the same area I had felt weakness earlier. The power grew until it took over and I was then able to go into the Silence. The power wiped out all symptons of pain, nausea and the urge to do number 2. I spent part of the night in Inner Silence.
Now, what was occuring was the fight between Spirit and flesh. Indeed the Spirit is the boss, the one in charge, yet the flesh would have you believe that it is. The flesh is supported by mortal beliefs, which in my case tried to convince me I was suffering from food poisoning which was giving me stomach upset and diarrhoea. If I had listened to the flesh I would be in bed right now trying to get better at some point in time. I find there is no point fighting the flesh and the beliefs that go with it. If you try to deny the pain and say it is nothing, or it is unreal, it will still persist. It will say “I must exist otherwise you won’t be denying me, would you?” The best thing I find is to ignore it and keep my eye on what I know to be Real – Spirit. As Jesus teaches “if therefore thine eye be single, thy whole body shall be full of light.” (Matthew 6:22) Meaning that you keep your whole focus on Spirit and let Spirit quicken the flesh, let Spirit take over. I’m not saying it’s easy when all you want to do is scream, but it takes discipline.
Just because Spirit has taken over doesn’t mean that I am now a light being and about to ascend from the planet. There is a purpose for taking form right now on earth. My purpose is first and foremost to subjugate the flesh to the Spirit; let the Spirit be made Flesh. Thus I may look human with flesh and blood yet when the Spirit is in charge, the body no longer behaves like it does as a mortal flesh, where its needs are supplied by mortal beliefs. Spirit in Flesh is sustained by Spirit, and only the Spirit. Spirit in Flesh does not suffer from sickness, aging or death. I can now get on with the job in hand, why I’m really here, without being disturbed by mortal beliefs. It takes discipline of course to remember that Spirit is the only Real.
The battle is over. There was never any battle where Spirit is concerned for Spirit is the only Power.
I am Spirit made Flesh,