I had opted for the National Cadet Corps during graduation and attended a camp training of 10 days during winter season. On the day I was leaving for the camp my sister at home had been delivered of a baby boy. The camp was away from my home on the outskirts of the city and we were not supposed to leave the campus. I came to know that there was a broken fence through which one could escape the campus, and secondly, doing sentry duty for 4 hours (2 hours duration at different times of the day) in nighttime one was entitled to daytime rest. This prompted me to take up night sentry duty and my shifts were from 8 to 10 PM and from 2 to 4 AM. I was on duty at the backside of an ammunition room, surrounded by dense groves of trees. Time passed easily in the first shift due to a cultural programme going on nearby. It was during the second shift that time seemed to go so slowly that I remembered almost all of my past experiences, sweet or sour, when the bell of 2.30 AM rang. It seemed that passing of the remaining one and half-an-hour would make me mad.
That night I realized that loneliness is horribly difficult to manage. Later in life I realized that sweet memories of love could ward off loneliness.
An individual trapped in a situation where all his efforts have failed, or when he is not able to meet expectations, may feel inclined to run away from the scene. Committing suicide in such a situation is not uncommon. If an aspirant for self-realisation or a devotee to God doesn’t get the desired result in a stipulated time, he may lose interest in the process and indulge in gratification of the senses or in worldly affairs. This will disturb his peace of mind. Even a saintly person who feels his worldly task is over or his body becoming feeble may leave his body by fasting or through some other process.
Thus, it is obvious that even a saintly person may like to stay as long as the body is supporting his mission.
On the other hand, a person may like to leave the world by a quick process when trapped in eddies of the life and feeling lonely. He is in a hurry and may repent very much in his last moments for taking such a drastic action without considering the consequences to his body or gauging the depth of his attachments towards relations. If saved/survived, he never thinks of repeating the act. However, those very lonely may attempt repeatedly, and, surprisingly, sometimes it is due to inherited genes.
The world belongs to those who have love in their hearts. Selfishness keeps people away, leaving a person alone. Hence, love at heart is our main objective in life; there seems to be no other purpose.
In self-realisation, too, when the ego-mind feels its death, or eternal loneliness, it resists the process, clinging to false attachments. Since it was desired, so it happens, and it is after survival that one naturally adopts devotion to God through duality. In devotion, service to all (the whole creation of God) is desired. Now, the five senses, mind and intellect, which were chasing worldly objects through duality, are engaged in service to others. The enlightened one attracts souls to the higher path of love and develops in them a faith in the continuity of existence.
The enlightened one maintains his non-duality and continues to behave in duality for the blossoming of universal love and it is that state in which he finally leaves his body. Mind is merged in intellect and together they are merged in the soul/God with feelings of totality in love.
SP Sharma, India