This is the question I was asking God during the depression phase of my Bipolar disorder (BP). How God answered and what His reply was, will become clear from the following:
This disease is characterized by an elevated mood, increased energy (mania) and for a few days sleepless nights. If not treated it may lead to the psychotic phase, followed by the depressive phase, which is characterized by guilt as a result of the manic state, with its excessive monetary expenses, and finally its exhaustion. The people we meet during the manic stage will make out a marked difference in our behaviour. There are many stories on the web describing people’s experiences of this disease. Hardly 10% are spiritual persons experiencing God realization, a boost up of intellect, or Kundalini awakening. The majority of others suffers a loss of prestige, job, money, and character, too. A few may attempt or actually commit suicide during the intense depression. This disease is of the recurring type, hence medication is to be continued throughout life.
In my case it so happened that by the end of May 2011 I got an old computer in the Pensioners’ office. I was excited to get a computer at my full disposal after almost a two years gap. My mind got involved in three activities, namely, writing articles for submission to my favourite website (www.powertoshare.com) after a gap of two years; two kinds of business enquiries for two relatives in my hometown in order to enhance their income; and a purchasing spree (biscuits, chocolates, cake, cold drink), sufficient for about a week for my granddaughter and her brother staying about two km away and visiting us frequently.
Earlier in 1977 I also had gotten BP disorder, but at that time I didn’t go to a doctor and quickly became normal. The story of that period is enumerated in my article: Death – a great spiritual teacher, indeed! The benefit of that BP was self-realization, i.e. the end of the intellect path and the start of the devotion path.
The benefit this time has been enumerated in my previous article: T…..R…..R…..R…..BHAMM – witnessing a divine body!
SP Sharma, India
I was born on 8 December 1945 and had self-realisation on 20 August 1977 at the age of 32. Thereafter I automatically shifted to the devotion path and a sort of relationship developed with God. Starting as a servant to God, then friendliness with God and then started liking God in child form. There is nothing left except to enjoy divine love and feel its presence in the whole world.