Sep 252004

“When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things.” (1 Corinthians 13: 11) I’m sure you all remember being a child, right? Your parents taught you about the world we live in, the […]

Surrender to Love

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Sep 242004

“Of course I’m lazy, I let God handle the details.” (Carson Attaway) “I can of mine own self do nothing.” (John 5: 30) Surrender, that dirty word. How does one surrender? How can I surrender to something I am not even sure exists? “Let go and let God!” Yeah, yeah, but how does it work […]

Pleasant Dreams

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Sep 202004

There comes a time in a girl’s life when she has to make a choice and stick to it. If you’ve read my stories, you probably know by now I’ve tried many different paradigms and truths. One truth that makes sense to me is that the world is a dream. I’ve had my fun and […]

Why the Collective doesnt work for me

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Sep 182004

“One formula or concept of God should not and cannot be forced on all.” “First Source is connected to individuals not organizations.” (Wingmakers) At some point in time last night I felt intense queasiness. I mentioned this to my mother. I had a sip of water, got engrossed in what I was watching on television, […]

Judging by Appearances

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Sep 172004

The bus stop where I usually catch my bus is on top of a hill. Sometimes I see people running up the hill just in time to catch the bus coming from behind. This morning, while I waited for my bus, I observed a man running up the hill. Is there a bus coming, I […]

Trusting in the Process

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Sep 172004

I’m on a bus again…altogether now…..Not another bus story! I’m riding on a bus. I have my eyes closed. I am enjoying being in silence. Someone has just sat in front of me. He’s listening to his radio at full blast. I glare at him, willing him to turn the volume down or switch it […]

What's Good for the Goose is Good for the Gander

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Sep 162004

One decision I have struggled with is how to treat others. What is the loving thing to do? Do I put other people’s needs first, or do I focus on my own needs? I realise now that it depends on how one perceives reality. To cut a long story short, I now only take into […]

Choice or No Choice?

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Sep 152004

I love travelling by buses, dont you? Yesterday I had another “Eureka” moment on the bus. Here goes… I have come to the realisation that in every moment I have two choices: to express all that I am; or to sabotage all that I am. Whether I am going against what I represent or expressing […]

Sep 152004

There are many people I admire, particularly those who have become self-realised. But there are two people who are head and shoulders above the rest. The first runner-up is………..Captain Katherine Janeway of the starship Voyager, part of the Star Trek sci-fi television series. I believe she is an excellent role model for leadership. I admire […]

Stake Your Claim!

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Sep 142004

“The earth is the LORD’s, and the fullness thereof; the world, and they that dwell therein. ” (Psalm 24: 1) You receive a letter notifying you that a distant relative has left you a huge inheritance in his will. You meet with the executor who asks you for proof of your identity. You produce your […]

Flying, Falling or None of the Above?

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Sep 132004

“And he that seeth me seeth him that sent me. ” (John 12: 45) Some kind soul has just pushed you over a cliff and you feel yourself falling. As you fall, you suddenly have a “knowing” that there is nothing at the bottom, you are falling for eternity. You have a thought: “If I’m […]

Sep 112004

It’s really late, just gone after 12 midnight and I’m listening to my mother trying to decide whether she should go to bed or not. She has a ritual where, if she has a snooze in the afternoon, she finds she stays awake till late. She is trying to recall whether she slept earlier, as […]

Sep 102004

“There are two dominant models of existence that shape the interaction and destiny of the human race. These models of existence are: — The Evolution/Saviorship model — The Transformation/Mastership model” “In the case of the transformation/mastership model of existence, its principle tenets are that the entity is limitless, deathless, and sovereign. All information flows from […]

Sep 092004

“In Ship’s, I integrated all the fragments of my being. I had acted in each one of them with perfect certainty and consistency, and yet I had had no idea that I had done that. I was, in essence, a gigantic puzzle, and to fit each piece of that puzzle into place produced an effect […]

Why look back?

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Sep 082004

I now send all my emails as blind copies. There are times though when I need to double-check whether I have missed out someone on the list, but I’ve already pressed “Send.” The problem with sending emails “blind” is that the names are not recorded on the sent copy. So what I usually do is […]

Coming Full Circle

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Sep 062004

“Pilate saith unto him [Jesus], What is truth? ” (John 18: 38) Years ago while I was at university I was inspired to study the truth. I wanted to know what made me the person that I am. Am I a gender, race, sexuality, class, religion, creed, nationality, genetics, my thoughts, emotions, my experiences…what? I […]

Shattering the Mirrors

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Sep 032004

“Sorcerers’ aspirations are to reach infinity, and to be conscious of it.” (p. 69, The Active Side of Infinity, by Carlos Castaneda) “The most accurate statement about what a nagual is [nagual meaning “the leader of a party of sorcerers”], which he voiced the day I found him, was that a nagual is empty, and […]

Lack is all in the Ego-mind

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Sep 022004

“For we know in part, and we prophesy in part. But when that which is perfect is come, then that which is in part shall be done away.” (1 Corinthians 13: 9-10) “”The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.” (Psalm 23: 1) “”Find the good. It’s all around you. Find it, showcase it […]

The Kingdom is Right Where You Are

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Sep 012004

And when he was demanded of the Pharisees, when the kingdom of God should come, he answered them and said, The kingdom of God cometh not with observation: Neither shall they say, Lo here! or, lo there! for, behold, the kingdom of God is within you. (Jesus, Matthew 17: 20-21) John and Mary are about […]

Aug 312004

The best things in life are free, But you can give them to the birds and the bees, Now give me money (that’s what I want) (from “Money” lyrics) The best things in life are free, Now that I’ve discovered what you mean to me The best things in life are free, Now that we’ve […]

Why Blanking is Good for You

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Aug 312004

To blank someone is to ignore the other or treat her as if she is not there. The one being blanked usually feels as if the other is staring right past or through her. Some people find being blanked upsetting. I’m here to tell you that you should never be upset when you’re blanked, on […]

Where there is no memory

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Aug 262004

“There are three kinds of lies: lies, damn lies, and statistics.” (Mark Twain) Have you ever started a relationship with someone and made a conscious decision to only accept the person as he is right at this moment? How many people do this? You want to know what the other has been doing, what makes […]

The Gods and Goddesses of the Olympics

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Aug 252004

I am writing this during the 2004 Olympics, which I have been following with interest. I reckon the Olympics is a perfect demonstration of mortal beliefs. These beliefs are to do with matter being real, that man has to take control over matter which has a tendency to fight back, that man’s experience is temporal, […]

What is Self-Realisation?

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Aug 242004

“This is the day which the LORD hath made; we will rejoice and be glad in it.” (Psalm 118: 24) “The thing that hath been, it is that which shall be; and that which is done is that which shall be done: and there is no new thing under the sun. ” (Ecclesiastes 1: 9) […]

What does the world have to offer?

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Aug 232004

“Master, you are wonderful” A student, asking his leave, gazed ardently at the patriarchal sage. “You have renounced riches and comforts to seek God and teach us wisdom.” It was well known that Bhaduri Mahasaya had forsaken great family wealth in his early childhood, when single-mindedly he had entered the yogic path. “You are reversing […]

Omnipresence is seeing myself in All

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Aug 212004

You know, everything is just like me. Even when things are not like me they are trying to be just like me. What appears to be space is filled with me and is me. It’s like I can see my reflection everywhere. Now what is true for myself is true for all. We are all […]

Why do some beliefs catch on and some don't?

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Aug 202004

I love observing how humans react to things. There are many collective beliefs people share, yet there are some people reject. Why is this the case? I’ve written many times that I travel by bus in London. From time to time I come across young kids. During school term and if I’m travelling between the […]

When does a whinny cease to be a whinny?

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Aug 192004

“There are many languages spoken by things,” the boy [Santiago] said. “There was a time when, for me, a camel’s whinnying was nothing more than whinnying. Then it became a signal for danger. And finally, it became just a whinny again.” (p. 144, The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho) I have written in the past about […]

No Power in Nature

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Aug 182004

I am writing two days after the “flash floods” in Boscastle in Cornwall, UK, which caused mayhem and devastation leaving many people stranded that needed to be rescued by helicopters, but there were no fatalities. I watched a documentary about the floods last night and the presenter talked about the power of nature. What power […]

Love and Freedom

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Aug 172004

“And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free. ” (John 8:32) You know, from my experiences here on earth, I have observed that two things motivate humanity: love and freedom.